I hate!

My gastric attack is a bitch who ruins my life and gives me sleepless nights.

Dumbo Me

Dear Mr.Bloggy,

I have not been feeling myself since last night.

In fact, I am feeling so miserable now that I woke up crying today.

These wrenching sadness, emotional upheavals give me an undeniable burden.

I feel I haven't achieve enough for the past 4 years of working.

I feel so lonely and

I feel hollow.

This conflict that I have with myself stems from the fact that I dont want to be stuck like this as a young woman.

I want more in life.

Maybe, having so much time on my hands makes me think beyond reasons.

I dont know, its all so confusing now.

I dont even know where to start.

Please..i need support!!!

Maaf

Ku anggapkan semalam
Satu kenangan yang suram
Bila cinta kita
Putus di jalan

Ku harapkan impian
Menjadi kenyataan
Namun aku kecewa

Mudahnya waktu melafazkan janji
Engkau dan aku berdua serupa
Rupanya mentari dalam mainan percintaan

Telahpun ku bentangkan segalanya
Mencari entah dimana silapnya
Jelas asmara kecundang jua

Bukan ku tak sudi kasih
Untuk bersamamu bercinta lagi
Kerna antara kita
Tidak sehaluan lagi

Maafkan diriku sayang
Menolak cintamu untuk kali ini
Walaupun ku tahu
Bersungguh benar rasa hatimu

Terasing

Kegelisahan didalam kedinginan
Meniti sepi keseorangan
Sebuah kematian yang tiada bernisan
Sendu mengiringi perpisahan

Ruang nan luas diri bergerak bebas
Namun keupayaanku terbatas
Segala mimpi menjadi asing
Perit membakar diri

Sebuah cinta dan harapan
Menjadi mimpi berterbangan
Tersekat nafasku kabur pandangan mataku
Amat tersiksa diriku
Kerana kehilanganmu

Oh mengapakah terus mengharap menanti
Walau cukup kusedari
Kau tak kan kembali

Pemergianmu mengisi kekosongan
Biarpun dikau masih kuperlukan
Kita dikatakan pasangan bahagia
Kini terasing luka

Untuk dia dari saya

Semoga dia tenang dan selamat di mana pun berada..bila mana ketidakberdayaan saya menjaga dia...hanya saya mampu menadah tangan...bermohon, merintih merayu...

Wahai Allah! Wahai Tuhanku....
jagalah dia dikala penjagaanku tak sampai kepadanya

Sayangi dia dikala rasa sayangku tak mampu merangkulnya
dalam dakapan yang nyata.

Muliakan dia dikala penghargaanku tak terangkum
dalam kata yang bersahaja....

Dan....
Kerana Engkau punya segala yang tak ku punya,
maka Engkau penuhilah segala permintaannya.
amen ya rabbal alamin…

rindu kasih.. Budi di kenang...Kasih disayang....Tatkala saya melangkah agar saya tidak berpaling lagi hendaknya...walaupun saya tidak berdaya sebenarnya...demi Allah saya akan cuba...

Happy Anniversary to Both of You

As your complete another 365 days of your "Happy Together"..
here's wishing for many more to come..
Happy Anniversary to both of you..

11.11.09

Entah II Afgan

kutahu, kau selingkuh
kau duakan cintaku yang tulus
kau tahu, diriku
tak pernah berpaling dari dirimu
tega nya kau dustai semua
janji kita berdua

Entah masih kah ada cinta dihatiku
untuk mu
entah kapan kah ku dapat membuka hati ini, untuk mu..o...

tak pernah ku bayangkan
cerita kita berakhir begini
tega nya kau dustai semua
janji kita berdua

Entah masih kah ada cinta dihatiku
untuk mu
entah kapan kah ku dapat membuka hati ini, untuk mu..o...

masih kah ada, o...
cinta dihati ini
dihati kecilku berharap kau masih bagian dari hidupku...

Entah masih kah ada cinta dihatiku
untuk mu
entah kapan kah ku dapat membuka hati ini, untuk mu..o...

psst~~this lyrics best and menyentuh hati...

Mr 08880

Dear Mr. Bloggy,

Lately, I noticed this particular 'someone' gets irritated and jumpy at the slightest provocation.
Does not even bother to be or at the very least act interested in my well beings, let alone go out of his way to find out about my recent activities.
Am I such a burden and a nuisance that this person cant stretch his tolerance level,anymore?
Or is it the same, lame, old excuse of 'busy-ness''?

Maybe I should just go away for a while.
Maybe I should just disappear.

love you loads,

Izzatis

Learning to Live...

I'm learning to let go...

I'm learning to trust...
I'm learning to BELIEVE in HIM and his plans instead of demanding that it goes my way..
I'm letting things go on it's own course..

And most importantly, I'm learning to be happy and having a life, like I used to be and to rediscover the person that I am.

(shouldnt be too hard,kan?)

Lots and lots of love, izzati

I heart you!

Mr BA Gun dearest

Thank you for being someone that I look up to daily.

(though sometimes I know we need to hear each other's thoughts and our whinies on our issues..).

Thank you for being there for me and being my confidante..

but @ now, i'm so sad for what had happened to US...

Wangsa Maju, 0147hours, 011109

mish..mish..mish..

Lately, I'm just tired of everything that surrounds me.
Until I can find something to perk me up and rejuvenate me, I'll write again.
I'm taking a bow for now my darling readers..
Till we meet again..

psst~~To My MR BA GUN..mish mish mish u so much!!

The Simple things in Life

Sometimes we tend to overlook on the simple things in life and in turn miss out on its precious moments.

A Day Raya '09 @ Kuala Terengganu

Hope it's not too late to wish all of my dearests

Selamat Hari Raya and Maaf Zahir & Batin.


Here's a sneak peek into my merry Hari Raya celebration this year.
As usual, it was celebrated with all the love from my family members, cousins, aunts and uncles.
Will post a lengthy note on this once I have ample time on my hands.
Till then, be safe my darlings...

ImissHim~~

I called her, she said she can’t talk.
I don’t know whether she really can’t talk or she didn’t feel like talking to me.
A little bird told me she needed some time. At first I don’t understand, I asked why but then I remember that I too, used to seek for my own solace.
I used to take my own time.
If you are reading this, I just want to tell you, I love you.
I miss you, you know.
Take care.
From some one that care me much!!

~~ izzatis ~~

Jangan Ada Benci...

Sebelum kita mencari kekurangan orang lain, carilah kekurangan diri sendiri. Adakah kita cukup SEMPURNA untuk dibandingkan dengan orang lain?… Kalau jawapan nya YA, maka kita berbohong atau kita PERASAN. Kerana tiada manusia yang SEMPURNA dalam dunia ini dan sentiasa ada yang perlu diperbaiki…..

Hakikatnya orang-orang yang menyayangi diri kita kerana kelebihan kita dan menerima segala kelemahan kita, sudah pastilah orang ini adalah sangat ikhlas menyayangi diri kita….

~~ IZZATIS ~~

Why me??

I hate to be like this...i hate to handle all this thing...

Smile for ME~~

Smile though your heart is aching,

Smile even though its breaking,

When there are clouds in the sky, you'll get by,

If you smile through your fear and sorrow,

Smile and maybe tomorrow,

You'll see the sun come shining through for you.

Light up your face with gladness,
Hide every trace of sadness,

Although a tear may be ever so near,

Thats the time you must keep on trying,

Smile, whats the use of crying?,

You'll find that life is still worthwhile,

If you just smile.

Izzatis

I'm the new Izzati start from today...

New Izzati begin!!!!!

Pit Stop..

I had tears in my eyes. And all the exhaustion compensates when I know I made someone happy. I might be clueless and uncertain of my choices in life. At times frustrated and confused. But for now, I'll accept this as a calling in my life.

Thank you to those people who have been with me and shaped me to who I have become today.

My Family~~without adik~~

~~ My siblings ~~

===============================================

Ismail Zakaria cums my good listener and back bone...

Mai and Ameer too...

My pic of Neo again..Got Neo??

Got neo?

www.satrianeoclub.com

Smart kan??

Yezzeerr...

From front of my car!!

Safety bullet tint..
by Special Forces Group (Airborne)
"gelap gilerss"

Nampak ganas kan...
Like sniping on urbanized terrain

This is the engine

Like i said..mmg gelap!!

Certificate by JPJ and Royal Malaysia Police (RMP)
Thanks to Ismail Zakaria..coz helping me on this..doing tinted and ect for my car...

My Baby Boo Neo!!

This mine...

Satria Neo

WSN 567

This is smart..

White...i love WHITE...
Baby boo Neo CPS...WSN 567

My car Neo CPS ~~ WSN ***

Eja and Me at car wash Ampang

Posing laa Eja..

Eja xcited with my car...

She loves that car...

Dear bloggers
This my car..NEO CPS,White color, WSN ***
100% tinted and warranty by JPJ and Royal Malaysian Police, Bukit Aman...
Thanks to **E**

ASEAN-Republic of Korea, Commemorative Summit

ASEAN-Republic of Korea
Commemorative Summit
31st May 2009 to 2nd June 2009
Jeju Island, Korea

ASEAN-Republic of Korea
Commemorative Summit

International Departure

Waiting at McD

New Private Jet
PM's private jet..yoohaa!!amaze!!

Moms and Dad in Italy for 2weeks

Moms and dad having trip to Italy for 2weeks..
Gonna miss them much..
Yesterday, send them to KLIA with all my siblings and frenz..
Thanxx X0X0 coz spent time to 'teman' me..

My King Tutts Haikal turns 2

Haikal turns 2 today...

Haikal with me...

Haikal with 'mak'~Kak Yati

He's waiting for the time...

Happy Birthday to Muhammad Haikal Ismail

New Model is Coming~~GS41??

Interior Design for new coming WAJA
This the pic of view

To Kak Nurul..thanXX for the cuppy cakes...

Yes..at last..

Hurm..nice taste..

This cuppy cakes from my officemate...

It's in those little details

Mother's Day Special Gift
Mama Love u loads!!!

For me, it's the little details that counts.

And DKNY, never seems to fail me.

This what i bought for my mama...DKNY Limited Edition

I bought for my self too..same like my mama..

DKNY

This another pic!!

Outstation

Dear bloggers

Will out for business trip this month..my schedule was very pack after i received an email from my big big boss..

• Will be in Pantai Timur for a week...Pahang, Terengganu and Kelantan..Wau wee can visit my adhere kampung this month!!yahoo!!
• Will be in Korea end of this month..MAYBE..toing toing toing

My previous NEO ~~ WPR 797

My Neo ~~ WPR 797

Sedih nye...

Warh agak dasyat my accident tau ...

hurm...

Takpelah..dah nak jadi kan

WPR 797 ~ My aunty said that WPR stand for
Wanita Pilihan Ramai (WPR)
...hahahaha

Story nya begini...
October 1, 2007, Monday, 0435hours, after my sahur (it happened bulan Ramadhan), i start my car and drove to office, Proton Holdings Berhad. On that day, im on leave. So my boss asked me to settle few things actually. Takpelah. Redah je and on that time raining and storm.
One my way to my cayunk neo depan post guard..one of the guard bersuara.. "izzati, careful tu hujan lebat gilers and kilat".. My answer, " Okies, zati drive slow je"..
Start my car and terus menyusuri jalan pulang ke Bukit Rimau, Kota Kemuning..Sampai satu selekoh, sebatang pokok tiba2 tumbang and i try to mengelak the pokok larr..my car berpusing 2,3 times..agak cemas masa tu..mase tu just ingat Allah, my mom and dad yg jauh di Pantai Timur..
After 3,4 times dentuman..no things i do..cuma matikan enjin,capai my hp and purse..1st thing i do, called my dad,mom.."mama, T accident on the way balik dari keje"..mom said.."ya allah, kat mana? dari mana?"..agak gelabah my mom masa tu. terus mati kan phone and i collapsezzzz..nasib ada one guy india tolong mase tu and papah i ke bus stop opposite tempat accident tu. i asked that guy untuk ambil all the punch card staff Human Resource mase tu jugaks. called wan, my good housemate to inform bout this...thanks to the indian guy yg tolong...
Ambulance datang and drove me to Hospital Tengku Ampuan, Klang..no choice becoz govt ambulance coz i request to bring me up to Sime Darby Medical Centre.
Kasih seorang bapa, he take first flight to Kuala Lumpur, 6.30am in the morning..arrive KLIA around 7.20am..rush to the hospital..kasih seorang boss dan staff sekerja juga mase tu amat dihargai..Proton Ambulance datang utk bawa diri ini ke Sime Darby Medical Centre mase tu..agak kagum dengan kesungguhan all my buddies. thanks fwenz..bosses..
Pastu check2, warded..
Mase tu laa i realize, what frenz for..hurm ada suka duka all this happen to me..
Ape pun im very thankful to all of you...

Love you all loads...Izzatis

but now i get back my NEO CPS...wait for it...will post the picture soonest...