Dont ever-ever disturb me..if NOT..

Is it you know they work for whom? With whom?
I've learned a lots from them...shooting,diving,tracking ect!!!!???

What can i talk about this guy~~Bro Mail~~RMP

I like his sandle...hahaha

He bring me to this place...MOTORCROSS..

See the 'kanak2' pun berani to try this..

Gilerss...

He likes to ask and want me to answer!!

Story telling time...Once upon a time...

This true eyes tell me everything bout life...He help me a lots when **** and family **** "buat taik" to me...

Start All over Again

As much as I'm loving the going-ons in my life, I cant help but still ponder on my current post breakup scenario.

Like it or not,I will label myself as a girl on the prowl for her Mr.Right.(eerrrrgghhh, I hate groupies but I am in that group!)

It is overwhelming sometimes to think I'm back into this dating scene.

Im certainly not an amateur on this for I have had, mind you,numerous breakups, been through it the whole way and bounced back right up.

But to start all over again at this age, the only word I can think of at this moment is darn TIRING.

Because although this might seem interesting and giddy at first, the novelty of it all wears off.

I do not have the energy nor the patience anymore.

Not at least to start all those pre-couplehood, mushy-mushy,Im-on- cloud-9 thinggy. All I want is to take the shortcut, skip the pre-dating scene and just welcome the comfort feeling of couplehood.

NO more of playing games.

Is that too much to ask?

Being single at this stage in my life is seriously odd.

And sometimes scary.

That is no joke.

It is to the extent that I wake up at 4am on most nights, worrying how much longer I'd be attached with this 'single status, and the thought (In case you forgot, I am no superwoman) looming over me on my 'abilities' to attract those blokes.

For as long as I can remember, I've always been part of a pair.

My friends tell me to relax.

The somewhat cliche phrase I often receive from them, "Alar, you petik jari ajer and guys will be lining up".Tapikan,from my last psychic evaluation, I petik jari, I tengok around, but takder pape pun.;p

Lagi satu, what is the connotation of "petik jari" and attracting YOUR kind of guy?Tak masuk akal sungguh. Kalau petik jari, yang datangnyer itik, but in reality what you were hoping for is ayam, then how?(Nyehhhhheheheheh..) ;)

It is also awkward now, when my slightest attention towards the opposite sex can be misinterpreted and classified as liking or have an interest to start a relationship. Aiyooohhhh, banyak pening kepala oohhh...to cope with this handful of love seeking guys.

I might sound desperate but I am not a psycho that I would be soo eager to jump into the bandwagon of the I-love-you's just because we've gone out on a few dates together.

Please, the minimum requirement and rule of thumb is to have the chemistry flowing, first.Let's not even talk about finding the 'spouse material'. It's very much slim pickings these days.

I just want an open relationship. The ego factor put aside,where anything can be said in a conversation without any hidden agenda.Bringing the best of each other through care, respect and commitment.

And of course both must have an ulimate devotion towards the relationship.

Again, is that too much to ask?

The Secret says that you must ask first and the universe will answer.

So I am asking NOW. And I'm more than ready to receive the guy.

Please let the universe work in tandem with the need for my kind of guy.

Oh, pretty please.

You Complete Me

The tears have dried.

Im not sure why Im feeling melancholy and all mushy.

(It's as if you've never left me before this.)

I know it's just temporary and this arrangement will somehow sort itself and somehow I'll adapt to it.

I know I am a survivor.

I was teary-eyed in the car just before you send me home, teary-eyed once i got in the house and crying myself uncontrollably while on the phone with you.

I think it all boils down for having you with me for the few past days.

I've been spoiled and it's been one of the best times in my life.

And I'm missing you now.

To be in love is the greatest thing but it is also the hardest.

Why does my heart suddenly filled with so much fear?

What does the fear speak for?

Maybe, it is knowing that i've fallen too deep this time.

So deep, it's hard to handle any hiccups along the way.

Maybe, that doesnt make sense..

Maybe, you just complete me..

And having you away, leaves me with half of my heart.

And that realization, terrifies me.. :(

Bakso Selayang~~080309

Thanks Ezan for the bakso..thanks to ur sis too kerana sudi membulanje kan bakso itu utk izzati..and of coz the kuih kochi and donut sira from SEGAMAT..

redah the traffic jam just bcoz of the bakso and ole2 from Segamat..

And at last i have this for my dinner...bakso, donut sira and kuih kochi

My Weekends~~Makan-makan time

Warh..my favourite..

Singgang~Telur Dadar~Ayam Goreng Kunyit~Sambal Belacan~Ulam2

Tea O Ais and Coffee

This the restaurant~~Selera Ramai 1 Ikan Singgang

Hidup Ini

Hidup ini penuh warna...
Warna Warni Kehidupan...

Bowink nye!!!!
Any idea for meyh???

I'm Back!

After a short time away from my personal blog, I finally decided it's time to bare it all,again.

Lantak lar aper org nak cakap.

They are not the ones determining my life and also my happiness.
Say what you want, I just simply do not have the energy to layan anymore.
My mantra is now "Anything remotely stupid to be said to a person, I shall just ignore"
And also I've decided to become wiser, if not the bigger adult.

As long as we're not bound by blood, I don't give a hoot of what anyone thinks of me.
Well apparently,in my pursuit to find peace and quiet,I found out a lot about you;my readers.
From your barrage of emails penetrating through my friendster and my personal accounts,on words of encouragement,to those knocking mails asking for invitations for access, not to mention those somewhat reflection of funny fan mails, I thank you. :)

On some days, when the workload overpowers the workings of the brain, those are my mood lifters.

However,contrary to my believe where my blog is just a way of me expressing some stupid,petty stuff, I acknowledge now that there are more of you who benefit from this humble blog of mine and I am touched by your honesty in saying so.
You don't find a lot of girls in this part of region who are willing to express themselves to a stranger.(known only through the virtual world).
And at the rare times they do, it can be unbelievable.

This song below is also part of the catalyst for my decision.

We are family
I got all my brothers & sister with me
We are family
Get up everybody and sing
Everyone can see we're together
As we walk on by(FLY!) and we fly just like birds of a feather
I won't tell no lie(ALL!) all of the people around us they say
Can they be that close
Just let me state for the record
We're giving love in a family dose

To which I know that no matter how bad the situation is, how difficult the tides are,I still have a wonderful loving family, giving their fullest support n especially my loving cousins and aunts. The female clan of the Arif family.And for which, I am most thankful and count my blessings day in, day out.