Proposal... :)

frenz, do please help me on this...

If you can't forgive

People you love are going to disappoint you, and if you can’t forgive them for not being perfect, you’re going to end up alone.

Girl..Live your Life

I understand that your heart is broken. You’re sad. I get it. But don’t let that stop you from living your life. Get out of bed every morning. Do your makeup. Smile. Get through the day. And whenever you don’t feel up to it, just look at the boy who did this to you. Do you think he cried himself to sleep last night? Probably not. As a matter of fact, I’ll bet you that he’s doing just fine. So when you wake up and you feel like laying in bed all day, just remember that he has other plans.

Girl, live your life, in spite of him

STOP IT!!!

Bile mana Izzatis mule takde kerje and menconteng sane sini...ish ish ish!

Through My Eyes

Kring kring kring...screen d henset cap ayam ku *my lovely ayah*, yuhuu mama&ayah mcm tawu2 anaknya sedang merindu and amar memerlukan.

Hari ini, sepanjang perjalanan menyusuri lebuhraya Sg Buloh ~ Wangsa Maju...berjurai-jurai airmata membasahi pipi. 

Rasanya ingin aku berhenti, menangis, menjerit sepuasnya...tapi kerana apa aku menangis???

Malam ini, tepat nye jam 11:10 pm, aku diseret ke masa silam...kenangan datang bertandang, sayu rasanya..utk apa rasa ini aku sendiri tak pasti, tapi ini lah yang aku rasa kini...amat sayu..

Jalan hidup aku banyak yang dah berubah sebenarnya..terlalu banyak.  Yang pastinya jalanan itu tak pernah selamanya terang or bersinar..ade ketika samar sangat dan adakalanya langsung gelap gelita.  Dan aku amat hargai pelbagai peristiwa yang aku tempuhi...aku belajar untuk menghargai sesuatu itu dengan lebih bagus sebenarnya, melihat kehidupan daripada pelbagai persepsi...mengenali manusia dari pelbagai sudut. 

Menghampiri, menjalin dan menjadi sebahagian daripada mereka...orang kata macam eksperimen...EKSPERIMEN HIDUP, yang pada satu detik tertentu..aku harus memilih bagaimana pengakhirannya.  Kerana dalam setiap perkara, kita mesti membuat SATU KEPUTUSAN!!

Sebenarnya...

Petang nan senja..menyaksikan pertemuan aku dan dia.  Kerana petang tadi juga menyaksikan luluhnya airmata aku. 

Aku tak pasti untuk apa airmata itu sebenarnya..tetapi ada sesuatu yang tertahan di atma ini sehingga aku tak mampu lagi menahan lantas terurai bersama titis-titis jernih, hatiku terasa sakit dan teramat sakit.  hati ku lebih sakit bila dia menyembunyikan sedalam-dalam tiap apa yang ada dalam hatinya.  Aku tahu telah banyak..terlalu banyak yang terpendam disudut hatinya.  Tiap kali pertemuan aku dan dia, aku tahu ada yang dia simpankan, rapat, kemas dalam hatinya sendiri.  tetapi aku masih mampu mengawal sepertimana dia juga pandai mengawal dan menyimpan apa yang dilindungi di balik sukmanya.

Akan tetapi aku tak mengerti dengan diri ini, petang tadi saat aku lihat wajahnya...aku dapat merasa satu kesakitan yang amat dalam.  sepatutnya aku tidak menunggu, tetapi hatiku yang mendesak...dan desakkan itu menampakkan aku pada sesuatu, dia dah lain dan aku...tidak menampakkan apa-apa.  Iye, itu hak dia untuk menampakkan kelainan..wajahnya petang tadi telah berkata-kata, sehingga aku merasa terlalu sakit dan menangis.  Sungguh aku tak dapat tahan lagi seperti selalu.  Tapi, hanya aku yang tewas dan dia dengan slumber dengan wajah biasa walau dalam hatinya aku tahu ada yang berkocak dan bergelora.  Kelakar, hanya aku yang menangis dan dia memang bijak mengawal emosi..atau mungkin dia telah banyak menangis sendirian???

Aku banyak belajar menjadi seorang yang lebih matang bila mengenali dia...  Aku mula memandang kehidupan dari persepsi yang berbeza bila kenal dia.  Aku belajar mengawal emosi untuk menjadi lebih tabah dan kuat sejak kenal dia.  Sebenarnya, banyak yang aku perolehi sejak kenal dia...dan aku tak pernah menyesal mengenali dia, sekalipun aku tahu suatu hari nanti dia akan pergi dari hidup ku seperti mana dia juga akan pergi daripada hidup yang dia sayang tanpa sebab.

rumitnya hidup!!  penuh reancah!!

"bila suatu hari nanti kau jumpa orang yang kau sayang tanpa sebab..kau akan tahu bagaimana seksanya nak tinggalkan orang yang kau sayang tanpa sebab itu.."

dan ayat itu tertusuk amat dalam melekat atma ku..

CUBA HIDUP DENGAN BIASE-BIASE SAHAJA

hurmm mata ini dah kuyu..sayu..mengantuk..

tapi masih sempat meluahkan apa yang tertusuk pilu...tiada yang salah, dan segala yang kita punya..yang salah hanya sudut pandangan kita..yang buat kita terpisah.

bukan ini yang sepatutnya menjadi jurang kita

cukup lah ye..tak pandai sebenarnya nak susun kata, ayat...nak tito dulu...

moga dia tahu apa aku rasa..

Hypnotic ft. Terry - Janji Manismu

Kata Hati...

Piccas Me...Vacation and Work Trip

 Check in time...

Departure Time...

Boarding time...

Step in...

Gadjet Me...

Flying with MAS

The true color of rainbow and i snap it from the airplane

The island

Nyummy n thanks crew

My smart shoes..TIMBERLAND

Hehe..with my DSLR

Check in here...here we go

Biler takde kerje

Snap it u...

Nyum nyum nyum

Time to balik...

Wanita menangis kerana...

"Ya Allah, mengapa perempuan mudah menangis?" Dalam mimpinya dia merasa seolah-olah mendengar jawapannya:

"Saat Ku ciptakan wanita, Aku membuatnya menjadi sangat utama.

Kuciptakan bahunya, agar mampu menahan seluruh beban dunia dan isinya, walaupun juga bahu itu harus cukup nyaman dan lembut untuk menahan kepala bayi yang sedang tertidur.

"Kuberikan wanita kekuatan untuk dapat melahirkan bayi dari rahimnya, walau kerap berulangkali menerima cerca dari si bayi itu apabila dia telah membesar.

"Kuberikan keperkasaan yang akan membuatnya tetap bertahan, pantang menyerah saat semua orang sudah putus asa.

"Ku berikan kesabaran jiwa untuk merawat keluarganya walau dia sendiri letih, walau sakit, walau penat, tanpa berkeluh kesah.

"Kuberikan wanita perasaan peka dan kasih sayang untuk mencintai semua anaknya dalam apa jua keadaan dan situasi. Walau acapkali anak-anaknya itu melukai perasaan dan hatinya. Perasaan ini pula yang akan memberikan kehangatan pada anak- anak yang mengantuk menahan lelap. Sentuhan inilah yang akan memberikan kenyamanan saat didakap dengan lembut olehnya.

"Kuberikan wanita kekuatan untuk membimbing suaminya melalui masa-masa sukar dan menjadi pelindung baginya.

Sebab bukankah tulang rusuk yang melindungi setiap hati dan jantung agar tak terkoyak..?

"Kuberikan kepadanya kebijaksanaan dan kemampuan untuk memberikan pengertian dan menyedarkan bahawa suami yang baik adalah yang tidak pernah melukai isterinya. Walau seringkali pula kebijaksanaan itu akan menguji setiap kesetiaan yang diberikan kepada suami agar tetap berdiri sejajar, saling melengkapi dan saling menyayangi.

"Dan akhirnya, Kuberikan wanita air mata, agar dapat mencurahkan perasaannya. Inilah yang khusus kepada wanita, agar dapat dia gunakan bila-bila masa pun dia inginkan. Ini bukan kelemahan bagi wanita, kerana sebenarnya air mata ini adalah "air mata kehidupan."

Forever Exists

Forever does exists

Optimism

Promise yourself to be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of mind. Look at the sunny side of everything, and make your optimism come true. Think only of the best, and expect only the best. Forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future. Give so much time to the improvement of yourself that you have no time to criticize others.

Live in the faith that the whole world is on your side so long as you are true to the best that is in you.

Why we shout when in anger...

‘Why do people shout in anger shout at each other?’

Disciples thought for a while, one of them said, ‘Because we lose our calm, we shout.’

‘But, why should you shout when the other person is just next to you? You can as well tell him what you have to say in a soft manner.’ asked the saint

Disciples gave some other answers but none satisfied the other disciples.

Finally the saint explained, .

‘When two people are angry at each other, their hearts distance a lot. To cover that distance they must shout to be able to hear each other. The angrier they are, the stronger they will have to shout to hear each other to cover that great distance.

What happens when two people fall in love? They don’t shout at each other but talk softly, Because their hearts are very close. The distance between them is either nonexistent or very small…’

The saint continued, ‘When they love each other even more, what happens? They do not speak, only whisper and they get even closer to each other in their love. Finally they even need not whisper, they only look at each other and that’s all. That is how close two people are when they love each other.’

He looked at his disciples and said.

‘So when you argue do not let your hearts get distant, Do not say words that distance each other more, Or else there will come a day when the distance is so great that you will not find the path to return. They may end up in divorce courts, for instance.’

...stress bila bergaduh dgn "dear", letih, sedih, penat, sakit hati 

Little Sleep

It took me a while to sleep last night, so I woke up with big eye bags. I wasn’t feeling emotionally good yesterday, a lot of things going inside my head. I guess all I need is some self reflection and evaluation. After all, we alone can control our feelings. If we let our feelings control us, that’s not a good thing. I know some things are beyond my control, and that worrying about them is not going to do me any good, so what I can do is to alter my perception to look at things in a positive way. It’s not easy, I wish I can just follow my own advice, but I’m just human. And I have struggles too. But this feeling too, shall pass. Now if only I knew how to get rid of dark circles under my eyes brought by little sleep that would be great too. LOL.

What If

Snapping this picture on my way back to hotel...

Worth ONE Word

“I used to feel so alone in the city. All those gazillions of people and then me, on the outside. Because how do you meet a new person? I was very stumped by this for many years. And then I realized, you just say, “Hi.” They may ignore you. Or you may marry them. And that possibility is worth that one word.”

A-Little-Girl

…because deep inside me is a little girl, so vulnerable, so helpless, weak, scared, full of longing,

…so when the tears stream down my face, and I don’t have anything to say, don’t ask me why I’m crying. Because I simply don’t know. Just hold me. I just want to be held.

I just want to find someone who won’t run away. Someone to look me in the eyes and tell me it’s okay that things don’t always go right. That this is how life works, and how it will always work. That it’s not going to be easy. Today, tomorrow, the next day, but it will somehow get better.

Hari ini...ku teringat...

Celik-celik mata, jam di tangan dah melepasi 6:30am..

Ada message dari seseorang.. "miss tres bangun-bangun, hari ini ada taklimat untuk hari-hari esok kita...cepat jangan terlambat ye"
Aku tersenyum sendiri, tapi dalam hati malas betul nak bangun n meloloskan diri dari selimut yang tebal ini...

Alamak! aku terlupa..ada tanggungjawab yang perlu aku laksanakan untuk ayah dan mama pagi ini...untuk ayah and mama, jangan lupa 10% of it, kongsi-kongsi dengan ti (panggilan manja ku pada ayah dan mama) yeaaa....

Untuk ayah, mama, siblings, walid, mie dan semua sedare mare ku...ti amat rindu kalian semua...

mama and ayah yang amat AKU SAYANG

Rumah walid & arwah umi di Losong Haji Su yang banyak meninggalkan kenangan manis buat kami semua..semoga roh arwah umi aman di sana..amin

Rumah ini menjadi simbolik negeri Terengganu taww...jemput datang ke teratak nenda saya ye

Keluarga kami amat bigger, biggest...

Kelahiran kami akan membuat ibu dan ayah kami gembira dengan kejayaan hari ini yang kami kecapi...utk adik-adik&sedara-sedara ku tercayunk yang masih gigih berusaha di perantauan, di sini, di sana, buktikan keturunan kita boleh yew!!

Rindu pada mereka semua...kami adalah sebuah keluarga besar dan kejayaan kami pada hari ini adalah kerana kami lahir dari "baka-baka" yang terbaik yang di amanahkan oleh NYA..insyaAllah..

Oratio Imperata

The earthquake and tsunami in Japan today is a terrible disaster, and a huge eye opener for us all. Let us unite once again in prayer…

Ya ALLAH, we raise our hearts to You in gratitude for the wonders of creation of which we are part, for Your providence in sustaining us in our needs, and for Your wisdom that guides the course of the universe.

we acknowledge our sins against You and the rest of creation.

we have not been good stewards of nature.

we have confused Your command to subdue the earth.

the environment is made to suffer our wrongdoing, and now we reap the harvest of our abuse and indifference.

global warming is upon us. typhoons, floods, volcanic eruption, and other natural calamities occur in increasing number and intensity.

we turn to You, our loving God Ya ALLAH, and beg forgiveness for our sins.

we ask that we, our loved ones and our hard earned possessions be spared from the threat of calamities, natural and man-made.

we beseech You to inspire us all to grow into responsible stewards of Your creation, and generous neighbors to those in need.
 amin

~semoga teman-teman yang berada di perantauan sana akan selamat dan berada di bawah lindungan NYA..amin~

In The Ruins

No storm last forever, just long enough to cloud your view and make you forget what it’s like to see the sun. You have to learn that you can find peace in confusion, and hope in despair, and that God is still there, even in the ruins.

And that just accepting the fact that you are loved, should be enough.

Entah kenapa aku...

Aku tulis atas ubun kasih akan jalan yang dipilih dan direntas ini. Tunjang rekod perjalanan semahunya di catat menjadi bukti bahawa setiap langkah adalah terarah dan tersaksi menuju destinasi yang tertetap. Mahu juga ku taburi setiap langkah dengan hawa yang indah, maka apakala kami ditakdirkan tersungkur semahunya, terkenang juga lipatan laluan yang sudah tercerna ini.. Zahir likunya mahu juga ku kongsikan, mahu juga diasimilasikan moga pohon ini berbunga membuahkan manfaat yang jitu jika tidak harum pun memadai dengan simpulan hasil yang keluar sepanjang jalan ini..

Tuhan, pada mu kami zahirkan harapan, pada mu kami rafak kan doa, pandu lah kami ke jalan yang lurus yang tiada belok sungkur di likunya, tiada sadung jatuh di siurnya dan hujung jalan natijahnya murni bagai mekarnya pucuk di embun pagi, bagai harumnya kemboja di hening malam.. Amiin

....aku menulis bukan kerana apa, tapi hanya meluahkan apa yang ku rasa

selamat datang ......., selamat tinggal bumi malaysia

Rintihan Suara Hati Izzati

Cinta dan kasih bagai umpanan merimbun merentap keinginan manusia memilikinya. Manusia mahu mencintai dan dicintai. Kasih mahu di kasih tanpa terkasih. Banyak sasterawan ahli puitis memadahkan puisi kasih yang akhirnya persis kepada cinta kepada Pencipta. Itu tak dapat dinafikan, itu cinta yang hakiki tiada bantahan... aku juga akur kepada sang pujangga.

Memang menjadi lumrah manusia diciptakan berpasangan, tapi bagaimana bisa kita tahu mana satu pasangan kita? Aku kurang mengerti tak mungkin tak siapa pun tahu bagaimana. Kadang kita sukakan seseorang tapi dia sudah berpunya, kadang ada orang suka kan kita tapi kita tak suka kan dia. Bagaimana hidup ini bisa dicerakinkan?

Apabila kita suka kan seseorang, perlukah kita terus berusaha walaupun kita tahu dia sudah berpunya?

Pernah ku terdengar kata-kata 'cinta tak semesti bersatu' dan 'love is letting go'. Ya mungkin aku bersetuju. Apa yang penting ialah, kalau kita cintakan seseorang kita mahu melihat dia bahagia walaupun bukan bersama kita kerana kita kasihkan dia tanpa syarat. Tiada syarat untuk dia bersama kita, buat apa kalau itu menambah deritanya.. Kita tak mahu orang yang kita kasihi disakiti jauh sekali melihat dia menderita...

Cinta yang ada jangan dikorbankan, biar di tolak, biar disisih jangan biarkan ianya bertukar menjadi dendam. Semaikan ia sebagai kenangan, bergembiralah dengan ia kerana cinta itu nikmat kebahagiaan. Doakan mereka yang kita kasihi dan cintai itu bahagia dan kita pasti bahagia dengan kebahagiannya. Apalah ada pada rasa marah, kecewa dan sedih dalam usia yang sesingkat ini. Gunakanlah hidup ini sepenuhnya, buangkan rasa marah apabila cinta kita ditolak, buangkan rasa kecewa apabila cinta kita tidak dihargai, buangkan rasa sedih apabila cinta kita tak terbalas..

Hiduplah sepenuh hati, cinta tak semestinya bersatu, mudah mudahan engkau bahagia di samping keluarga mu...aminn

Ya ALLAH..

Ya Allah..

How do I get over him?

If we’re not meant to be together, why does this stupid heart still keep shouting his name? I know I’ve surrendered everything to you ALLAH, including this love I have for him. I know that this is beyond my control now. I made a decision to end our relationship, and I have to stick by that decision. I hope that one day, you will change my heart. You will slowly change this love I have for him. And although there are days when I know I’d be okay, there are also times when I’d just break down and cry. There’s still love left in my heart. And I don’t know if I’ll ever get over him. I’ve tried meeting other guys, but my heart still keeps coming back to him! I don’t know if I should be more patient and allow some time for my heart to heal. I just don’t know how long this will last.

Please Allah, if he’s not the guy that you want for me, please change my heart. If he’s not the guy for me, I will embrace that truth with all my heart. But I’m praying that you’ll change my feelings. Change my heart and prepare it for what’s to come.

I want to follow the road that you’ve mapped out for me, Father. Please help me to accept whatever happens next…

Yummy Delights: Crunch Bar w/ Ice Cream

(yummy dummy my tummy)

Seemingly Perfect

There is one moment in life when you are with someone and it feels like the world has stopped and your life seems so perfect.

Make sure you never lose that person.

Goodbye vs Letting Go

“You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect - you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there.”

(Plane ini yang membawa ku terbang kemana sahaja kini)

I just wanna say Thank You

You absolutely destroyed me, did you know that? But you know what, I just wanna say thank you. I don’t regret meeting you, but I don’t wish you would magically come back into my life again because I believe God gives us someone like this for a reason. Someone who will hurt you a million times, someone who will leave you & not look back. But this person, they will make you a better person in the end.

You will come out stronger than ever before and you will be happier without him than you were with him.

Hold my hands ayah...

Once a little girl and her father were crossing a bridge. The father was kind of scared so he asked his little daughter, “Sweetheart , please hold my hand so that you don’t fall into the river.”

The little girl said, “No, Dad. You hold my hand.”

“What’s the difference?” asked the puzzle father.

“There’s a big difference,” replied the little girl.

“If I hold your hand and something happens to me, chances are that I may let your hand go. But if you hold my hand, I know for sure that no matter what happens, you will never let my hand go.”

...there may be times when we let go of His hand, but He NEVER lets our hand go…

Carrots..Eggs..Coffee

A young woman went to her mother and told her about her life and how things were so hard for her. She did not know how she was going to make it and wanted to give up. She was tired of fighting and struggling. It seemed as one problem was solved, a new one would pop up.

Her mother took her to the kitchen. She filled three pots with water and placed each on a high fire, and soon the pots came to boil. In the first pot she placed carrots, in the second she placed eggs, and in the last she placed ground coffee beans. She let them sit and boil; without saying a word. In about twenty minutes she turned off the burners. She fished the carrots out and placed them in a bowl. She pulled the eggs out and placed them in a bowl. Then she ladled the coffee out and placed it in a bowl.

Turning to her daughter, she asked, “Tell me what you see.”

“Carrots, eggs, and coffee,” she replied. Her mother brought her closer and asked her to feel the carrots. She did and noted that they were soft. The mother then asked the daughter to take an egg and break it. After pulling off the shell, she observed the hard boiled egg. Finally, the mother asked the daughter to sip the coffee. The daughter smiled as she tasted its rich aroma then asked,

“What does it mean, mother?”

Her mother explained that each of these objects had faced the same adversity: boiling water. Each reacted differently. The carrot went in strong, hard, and unrelenting. However, after being subjected to the boiling water, it softened and became weak. The egg had been fragile. Its thin outer shell had protected its liquid interior, but after sitting through the boiling water, its inside became hardened. The ground coffee beans were unique, however. After they were in the boiling water, they had changed the water.

“Which are you?” she asked her daughter.

Thanks mama for the story of carrots, eggs & coffee

Poisonous Mushroom

Cinta itu membahagiakan,

Cinta itu juga menyakitkan..

Mencintai tidak bermakna memiliki cinta tersebut..

Bersyukurlah..

Kerana masih berpeluang merasai perasaan mencintai dan dicintai..

"Mungkin kita tak ada jodoh. Awak lelaki yang baik. Awak berhak dapat perempuan yang lebih baik. Saya nak awak janji dengan saya satu benda, untuk kali terakhir. Satu hari nanti bila awak benar-benar jatuh cinta dan awak betul-betul sayangkan dia, hargai perempuan tu. Mudah-mudahan perempuan tu akan sayang awak, terima awak seadanya, hormati awak sebagai lelaki dan yang paling penting bahagiakan awak. Saya akan bahagia tengok awak bahagia," itu kata-kata terakhir aku untuk dia.

"Love is like a poisonous mushroom. You don’t know if it is the real thing until it is too late.." Aku tersenyum sendiri.. entah kenapa aku kuat untuk sekian kali..