Those who love you

Mode Takde Mood

 

Tiada kedamaian di balik amarah

Tiada rasa aman di balik kekerasan

Hanya kelembutan membuat kita aman dan damai

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Menanti kepulangan

 

...btw motif piccas ni apa ya?? sharing d moment untuk all readers.  love u owls \(*,*)/

Mencari taman-taman syurga di Ramadhan ini...



Eye of me

Salam readers...

Lama sungguh tak melihat bloggy me ini, rindu sangat-sangat.  Ada few frenz bertanya kenapa lama dah tak update cerita and morry-morry di blog.  Lately sangat busy, entah la busy dengan apa... life, work, myself and yang paling penting & terutama adalah my lovely family.

Btw, nak share dgn all readers... aturan allah sangat indah sebenarnya.  Tak sangka bila dipertemukan dengan adik manis yang sudah bergelar seorang isteri, a month ago...  Kecil benar dunia ini.  Sempat saya menyapa dan menegur dia... dan saya yakin bila Allah hadirkan seseorang depan mata kita dan dia berikan kita kekuatan itu untuk menyambutnya dengan keterbukaan hati.  Insya'allah, sapaan ikhlas dan senyuman yang terukir akan terus menjadi memori dan tersimpan kemas dalam lipatan cerita kehidupan :)

Timothy Learly said, ADMIT IT! 

I'm happy for you both and tidak terlambat untuk saya mengucapkan...

"Selamat Pengantin Baru Teman - Jasrul & Muhaini"

Alhamdulillah.. dengan apa yang diberikan oleh NYA dan saya bersyukur kerana mama & ayah mampu mendidik saya sehingga ke tahap ini sekarang.  Love you mama & ayah yang mungkin sudah sampai ke bumi German hari ini...

Next will be my fire fighters bila Election tiba... merangka beberapa lawatan kerja dalam & luar negara untuk "boss dan isteri" yang dicintai seluruh rakyat MALAYSIA!!  Tidak pernah saya mendabik dada dengan apa yang saya kecapi kini tapi cukuplah saya menadah tangan mengucapkan syukur kepada NYA dan kongsikan kegembiraan kejayaan saya kini bersama keluarga tersayang, mr ones tres, teman-teman seperjuangan & insan-insan disekeliling saya.

Life can be hard!! But that’s the challenge. Until next time.

 

Jabatan Perdana Menteri (PM's Office) - IZZATIS JERR (*,^)

 

 

Gotch ya my white baby VW 878 - IZZATIS JERR (*,^)

 

Personal Bodyguard - BG to.... (sapa nak PM me ya!) - IZZATIS JERR (*,^)

 

Dapat choc ni semalam :) - IZZATIS JERR (*,^)

 

Angpow collection begin... tick tock tick tock - IZZATIS JERR (*,^)

 

 

Wanna share sumthing with all readers from my boss text....

 

What water can do, gasoline cannot and what copper can, gold cannot. The fragility of the ant enables it to move and the rigidity of the tree enables it to stay rooted. Everything and everybody has been designed with a proportion of uniqueness to serve a purpose that we can fulfill only by being our unique self. You as you alone can serve your purpose and I as I alone can serve my purpose. You are here to be you… just you.

 

With love, Izzati Shafii

 

Extravagan!!!

It's been a while I've not written anything in this blog. Ahh, I am not that busy actually. Just kinda lazy lately to share eventhough there were many exciting events happened in the past few months. Now, I do not know which one to put first.

But, I think, I better forgo that aforesaid stories as I have more exciting journey to embark in September onwards. Tough ones though but I am excited as this will mark a new chapter of my life.

Well, my journey? It's going to be an approximately few years’ journey that I am not sure whether I will make it to the end. So many possibilities. But as what my blog is saying, take one day at a time. Besides putting all my effort, all that I need to do is to down on my knees praying to God and utter my request. ‘Lord, You see our journey as we encounter challenges. The days can be exhaustingly long, yet You give us everything we need to be successful in our tasks. Thank You for offering Your extravagant joy to us as our source of strength. Help us to remember this joy when we need it most.’-Amen

 

Watch out..i wanna share some photos with all my readers :)

 

I love to cook... my restaurant will be open soon!!!

 

 

Always 'bye bye' to my lovers :( - one of my tickets

btw ENRICH is the richers!! hehe

 



 

I mish blogging...

Hi there!

 

I know it's been a long time since I get the chance to update my dearest blog. I feel so incomplete for the past few months till now for not updating my blog and I rarely open it since because of my hectic schedule in my work. I want to share lots of things about what I'm up to from my wishlist to my personal issues in life but I think I need to work for it carefully.. HAHA. You know it's very normal to encounter problems in life but sometimes it's really hard to solve them.

 

There are times that we almost give up because of hurtful feelings and we cannot take it anymore. Honestly, until now I don't have any idea if how I have able to solve and overcome my problems and frustrations in my life for the past few months.

 

Maybe, I always think the pros and cons of every step I make so that things will get smoother each day plus, I always get the strength from HIM. Mind you, my problems were not the typical "problem" that people have.

 

Moving forward, I just wanna share that I'm getting addict in INSTAGRAM.

 

I know almost all of you are using the App because it's really fun.

 

Come i wanna share something with all my bloggers fans..watch it out ya

 

 

Some of my favourites.

I miss words.

I miss blogging.

I miss you all.

 

psst..i already start my new journey, new begins..always pray for my best and also to all my lovers out there..muachachassss

 

*izzati shafii*

Kalut sekejap diri di negara orang..Penjelajahan ke Korea

Salam to all readers...

3 bulan penjelajahan ke Korea Selatan untuk Expo 2012 Yeosu Korea till August 2012.. Tak mudah nak menempatkan diri untuk ke sini hehehe.. Gembira+Sedih+Sayu+Ok kaa+Boleh ka+Of coz YES+Macam macam ada.. 

Jom nak share sumthing..watch it out

7 star Hotel ** Ala ala Al Buj

 

Welcome to Yeosu..our Deputy Prime Minister dan saya jumpa seseorang & bercerita panjang tentang kisah mereka :(... will keep in touch once im back to JPM's ya Uncle!!

Dats it..nanti sambung lagi ya.. Mau titon sudah.. nyte Malaysian!!!

Respect Yourself

Saya sangat rindu dia!!

Nampak saja saya banyak main, relax semua itu tapi tak ada siapa tahu saya kejar impian saya setiap hari. Sampaikan saya sendiri rindu dengan si dia.

Dulu tiap-tiap hari bersama si dia. Nak keluar bawa si dia. Nak tidur pun kalau boleh nak peluk si dia. Sekarang ni dah tak sempat. Si dia pun dah tak bermaya.

Kesian saya tengok dia di sudut penjuru kamar peribadi saya. Bukan satu tapi empat okey!!

Haish, tak boleh jadi ni, saya kena kena luangkan masa dengan si dia semula. Dari kecil bermain bersama dengan si dia tak mungkin nak tinggalkan begitu saja.

Bila la nak bawa si dia pergi taman main. Rindu gila ni. Kaki pun dah gatal-gatal nak beraksi.

Tunggu waktu itu ye..nanti saya bawa kamu okies.. :)

Miss Malaysia DAMN MUCH!!

Hari hari hupdate blog ni.... YA ALLAH dah bersawang rupanya blog saya ni. Ermm miss MALAYSIA so much!! Tolong pulangkan saya ke negara asal saya... sob sob sob...

**muke ketat**

**Cenyommm laaa Izzati**

**Tibe tibe saya jadi ketot bak kate Nurdiana Natasha**

**Untuk pengetahuan umum..tak pernah ku hupdate piccas saya di under d sea..harini "tebiat" kot**

Norwich UK - Japan - Korea - Dubai - Jeddah - Makkah

Alhamdulillah...

Baru permulaan..langkah demi langkah akan di "SHOW' kan..

Doakan untuk sebuah kebahagiaan yang berpanjangan..

Love ur self...said Ayah & Mama to me before my day

Beautiful Memoirsss...

I've already transformed my career, my life, my future...

Alhamdulillah...  It's a new challenge for me

I've seen my true color...

Thanks Ayah & Mama for giving me the strength

I LOVE to be myself..

Nur Izzati ~ Cahaya Kekuatanku

I will forever cherish...
Insyallah and now on the beautiful memoirsss is slowly in d making

I remember how it was when I first fell in love. It was such an intense kind of love that I almost died trying to get over it. What we had was beyond words, it was real love. I thought I wouldn’t be able to experience that kind of love again.

But then I met him, and he reminded me of what it felt to like someone again. With him, I was able to feel again. I got to experience the sweetness of love, romantic stargazing. It wasn’t enough for me to call it love, but it made me realize that yes, it is possible to fall in love again. And I’m not giving up hope. I believe that someone is out there for me. I believe I will fall in love again. Maybe not the kind of love I felt before, but surely, I could get closer. I need to believe that it will happen again for me. Some say you only experience a love like that once in a lifetime.

I don’t know whether it’s true or not. But I’m not losing hope. What happened between us was something special. It was short-lived, but it made me so happy. I got to experience what I’ve never experienced before.

And it will always remain a beautiful memory I will forever cherish.

Saya mmpu tersenyum bahagia setiap masa...kerana saya mulai sedar dan yakin...aturan Tuhan itu terbaik buat saya....Alhamdulillah saya panjatkan padaNya....Terima kasih Allah kerana hadirkan lelaki ini untuk saya….

Nota kaki: Jangan pernah putus asa. Mujahadah itu pahit kerana syurga itu indah~ Cinta sejati tidak akan datang dengan mencari pasangan yang sempurna, tetapi belajar dengan melihat pasangan yang tidak sempurna itu sebagai sempurna

Lirik Sayang – Dayang N Marcell

Masihkah kau ingat
Janji cinta kita dulu bersama
Masihkah kau rindu
Saat-saat bila ku bersamamu

Jangan kau siakan cinta ini
Janganlah hilangkan segala-galanya

Chorus

Sayang
Kau bintang yang menyinari hidupku
Kau cahayaku

Sayang
Tiada lagi yang sama sepertimu
Kau hanya satu

 

Percaya padaku
Cinta ini masih seperti dulu
Hatiku merasa
Segala-galanya yang kau rasakan

Tanpa kau di sisiku kini
Hidupku kan tak sama lagi

 

Ulang Chorus

Sayang
Jangan kau siakan cinta ini
Janganlah hilangkan segala-galanya

Ulang Chorus

13 weeks 3 days

i miss u my half-cut

wait for me ya...

Rescue Me

i was going to title this post ‘rescue me’. but when that title came across my mind, i just realize there’s none to ask for help but myself.

and at first, i thought i was the little hand reaching out for other’s to be rescued. but turned out, both hands were my own.

well, dear love… just breath sayang…

I believe in CHANGE

Do we have to believe in change ? That’s the next question.

Change happens, whether we want it or not. And you may pretend that everything is the same, but it is not.

One day, a friend asked me if ever I choose society over myself, and I replied I’ve chose society once just to learn that I should have choose myself. And the pain is still the same, the wound is not healing at all.

But whatever I choose, change happened. Like it or not.

I can only imagine what would it be if ever I choose myself that time. I would not be running like this, instead I would be staying and caring for my precious. Preparing to have my precious in less than 20 weeks.

But that’s not the change I’ve had and still having. I would not refer it as a change actually, but a loss, total loss. Since I chose the society, I lose everything. I’m not changing, but losing. Literally everything. In my words, death is a better fate than this.

Yet, I have to deal with this loss cause apparently I’m still breathing. The loss change me in every aspect of my life, if you want to call this a life. I have new pair of ‘eyes’ to see this world in a whole new perspective. And these perspectives I have are not easily accepted by the society, I couldn’t care less.

Change happens, change had happened. I am not the same person I was. So does the world as I see it, which I couldn’t care even less. But it seems the world can’t afford to lose one person to play in its stage. It’s like in every way, it tries to draw me back in the name of ‘change’. ‘Change’ as this world wants me to be, and ignoring what I’ve become. How funny is that?!

And I cried my eyes out today trying to convince the world that I don’t belong to their precious place. I am a dye in their milk pot. As the matter of fact I’m the trash and should be put in the trash can cause I chose to be one.

Pretending to open your arms and saying that everything is still the same, the past is already behind, while we all can see my stain is not likely going to fade/gone, is not helping at all. It only worsen everything that’s already worst.

Change happens, and I don’t have to believe in it. It just happens. And I am suppose to be able to accept that change, no matter how good and/or bad it is. So do you.

Read me..

This is sad. I deserve better, I deserve the best. Not from you, not from anyone, but from myself. And the way to give the best to myself starts with some respect.

I respect myself as a fine (if not sophisticated) woman, with lots of brain, lots of passion, kind-hearted and caring. And I can also stood up for myself. Strong feet to support my own life. Skillful hands to carve my own destiny. Yes, I do respect myself.

Dear one, loving in my fullest is my nature. Yes, you are lucky (maybe a lil bit more) to be loved by me. Cause I’d give you the fullest and I already did. Not a single regret, just gratitude for love is love, pure and unconditional.

Unfortunately, some failed to see my way. And some just missed their shots. That’s okay. We all are supposedly to learn the lessons, right ?

Now, read me.

Let’s play some respect from now on and from here on. Not for you, not for me, not for the world. But for the lesson we’ve (supposedly) learned. The price of that lesson is a life. Price that nothing in this world and/or beyond can repay. The least we can do is putting some respect on it. Don’t you think ?

And this has been so sad. For everyone that’s involved. And surely respect is not in the equation at all. That is why this has been so sad. None of us deserves this. And surely some respect would be a good start to make it decent for everyone.

(in realization that you are in your finest spot in your life, dear.. be grateful and i am thankful for being able to see you in your finest)

Choices...

Life is all about choices, some say. And yes, I too agree. From daily lives to the major choices of our lives. From choosing what food are we going to eat today to to what are we going to do with our lives.

Long time ago, with a friend who’s very dear to me (oh how I missed him so..), I had a discussion about choices of life and how every single choice that we make would bring us places but not in certain things. Those things (according to him) are birth, mate, fortune and death. At that time, we were young (in terms of age in this particular life) and we haven’t made many choices to be regretted for. But we came to a ‘silence’ that night, ‘silence’ I can’t ever forget. ‘Silence’ that says ‘here we go, choices are waiting’.

Many years gone by now, we surely walked our own path and made the choices of our own life. Right or wrong is (surely) not the subject (and so not my subject). And our choices did take us places. He’s got his own company now and I just can’t wait for the moment I’d inhale a breath and never exhale it back.

Gratitude or regret is the common reaction after we make our choices. If the choices are beneficial in anyways, gratitude would be uttered. And if we don’t find any beneficial (as per our terms), we’d pose a regret.

Both, gratitude and regret, are reactions after we make an act of choosing. Having the reaction after an action is normal, in fact its nature’s law. That’s why life has its ups and downs. I, personally, am still trying to enjoy this ride, to the max. I’d have no hesitation at all to laugh as hard as I want and to suck the pain in its every iota part in terms of enjoying this ride to the max. And I have.

But, instead of lagging on reaction, I figure to take a lil bit lead. I’m taking the lead till we get to the gap between choices. Just right before we’d make another choice in this life. What is really going on there ?

We’d mostly find calculation and comparison there in every aspect possible. Feelings and emotions sometimes play their role to either screw or help us. And in fewer sometimes, we have our consciousness and awareness rules.

Sometimes when we find ourselves in the lead position, we get to have a prediction of the reaction we’d experience later on. Might help us a little to go through the ups and downs. Especially if we have the consciousness and the awareness up.

But I can’t help wondering, after all those choices I made in this particular life, that has brought me places (real places and state-of-mind places), after all the gratitude and all the regrets, is it really up to me to make all those choices ? Or I was (am still) just blinded by the ego playing God ? Since whatever choices I’d have made in the past, eventually will bring me in this one particular place where I am now (regarding the things that are certain no matter what between birth and death).

Somehow and some when between those agarbattis, I just lay down there and figure whatever may come as my choices in the table of life and whatever my choosing would be, all I have to do is just be prepared for the ups and downs, without getting too attach with it, cause I held high my responsibility (read: respond ability) attitude without losing style in the process.

Choices were in the table. We’ve chose. And in between is our attitude, our respond ability, the responsibility. Till the next choices lay in the table.

Peace... Izzatis ** NYC

Cuba tenang kan diri..

Minggu sudah, saya kira minggu sedih saya.  Minggu ini, bukan juga minggu gembira saya.  Saya tak  mahu terus diulit kesedihan itu.  Kesedihan yang membawa saya kepada kedukaan.  Saya betul-beul kecewa dengan keadaan itu.  Saya hampir marah.  Saya yakin itu bukan kesalahan saya.  Saya juga yakin itu bukan kesilapan saya.  Kerana sikap dan kejahatan orang lain, saya menerima hukuman ini.

Tapi, waktu demi waktu. Saya fikir positif.  Ye.. jika itu bukan kesalahan dan kesilapan saya, tapi pasti ianya kerana kesalahan dan kesilapan saya yang lalu.  Biarlah..orang yang membuat kesilapan ia tetap bersalah.  Orang itu juga tak semestinya dihukum.  Mereka juga layak diberi kemaafan.  Seperti saya juga, jika saya silap, pasti saya inginkan keampunan.

Saya juga percaya, dengan datangnya dugaan ini mendekatkan kita dengan keinsafan.  Semoga saya tidak lalai dengan duniawi ini.  InsyaAllah

Apa pun keputusan nanti, saya terima dengan hati terbuka.  Saya juga rela memaafkan.  Kerana saya juga ingin dimaafkan.  Maafkan saya.

Nota kaki: Mari ke gym! Kerana jauh, ini sahaja yang dapat diisi dikala dan ketika waktu ini, tak lama dah, sedikit masa lagi ye Nur Izzati, harus tabah.. :)  Untuk ayah, semoga akan terus tersenyum untuk kami semua ye.  Ayah mampu dan hebat untuk menjadi pentadbir untuk sebuah tanggungjawab yang dipertanggungjawabkan kepada ayah kerana itu Ketua Negara percaya ayah boleh!!

Again, congrats ayah dan Ti doakan ayah sihat-sihat selalu, cayunk ayah & mama yang jauh d sana.

Itu hukum karma...

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim ~ In The Name of Allah The Most Gracious and The Most Merciful

Assalamualaikum semua dan Salam 11 Rabiul Akhir 1433H, 4 March 2012, hari Ahad

(Dengan sedikit senyuman)

Saya.Pening.Sedih.Penat.Kecewa.Sedikit Marah.Teraniaya.

Tapi saya tak tahu..Adakah saya patut merasai kesemuanya itu? Saya berfikir sejenak.  Adakah kejadian yang menimpa saya ini disebabkan perbuatan saya yang lalu?  Mungkin?  Mungkin juga tidak.  Semalamam tak tidur.  Semalaman juga asik terjaga².  Sudahlah dua menjak ni memang kurang sihat.  Saya menangis.

Saya.  Bukan meraih simpati.  Bukan mengadu domba.  Bukan apa² saja.  Saya cuma ingin meluahkan di sini.  Bukan tidak ada bahu untuk saya tumpangkan.  Bukan tidak ada kawan yang mendengar.  Bukan tidak ada yang simpati.  Cuma saya perlu luahkan dengan lebih dalam.  Saya tertekan.  Saya menangis lagi.

Saya.  Rasa teraniaya.  Rasa tak patut diperlakukan.  Rasa letih dengan semua ini.  Tapi mungkin ini hukum karma yang patut saya terima.  Mungkin perbuatan saya yang lampau.  Harus "dibayar" dengan cara ini.

Dalam ayat al-Quran Surah Al-Israk Ayat 7 yang bermaksud: Jika kamu berbuat kebaikan, maka faedahnya adalah untuk mu dan jika kamu berbuat kejahatan, maka berbalik kepada diri kamu juga. "

Hal ini juga dikatakan berkait dengan hukum karma yang menentukan amal perbuatan seseorang itu akan dibalas sama ada dengan kebaikan atau seba­liknya, bergantung pada tindakan mahupun perbuatan seseorang.

***saya jumpa dalam Google***

Dipetik ayat dalam Ombak Rindu:

Redha itu Ikhlas.Pasrah itu Berserah

Jika ini "galang-gantinya" saya Redha dan saya juga Pasrah.  InsyaAllah.Semoga Allah ampunkan dosa² umatNya.  Amin.

Nota kaki: Hari ini adalah hari paling perit dalam hidup saya menerima berita ini.  Saya akan tabah menerima sebarang keputusan nanti.  Doakan saya.